This is another old poem I wrote four years ago. 

I love you
but I want to see you bleed
I hate you
but I want you with me
Damn it I don’t know what to do
why am I such a fool for?
my mind and heart want different things
what am I suppose to listen to?
my heart yearns for you
my mind yearns for you too
but it thinks it’s too much of a gamble
Damn it all, I’m so sick of this
I wish for a wish
yet I’m not in a fairytale
where everyday is a happy ending
Enough of this!
I know what I want and I’m feeling pretty lucky
They do say love is for the lucky and for the brave